I'm a Survivor!

I'm convinced that I was set up on last Wednesday.  I was relaxing on the couch when a Facebook alert from my phone revealed that my favorite Zumba instructor was making her class a celebration for myself and another tough cookie.  I was excited!  This was going to be a party y'all.

There's two things I LOVE to do, shop and dance.  After deciding to truly live for Christ I gave up going to the clubs.  When Zumba came along the void for dancing weekly was filled. And who could complain I was getting my groove on 4 days a week, and as a result I was looking great.

We had a Pink Party to attend!  What I found interesting is that I had nothing pink in my closet.  AWWWWWH! LOL!  As a Junior Mission member and vice president at St James Missionary Baptist, I wore pink and green in Jesus name for several years.  I guess the Lord has a since of humor.  After I passed the towel to my successor I promptly scrubbed my closet. Lol!

Fast forward to last week and I had nothing to wear.  I thank my beautiful sorority sisters for turning the traditionally pink breast cancer experience red for me.  Ha!  Anyways... After a search for the right pink shirt and an attempt at a DIY project I ended up rocking my #TeamToughCookie tank, which I LOVE!

The hubz, our youngest daughter,  and I arrive and I'm in the zone.  You see I'm a Z-beast.  I leave it all on the floor.  I had my mind made up, I'm going in here to give it my all.  The party was underway when we arrived.  As soon as I was spotted, the next song would be my favorite.  I made it through the song.  It wasn't my 100% but I gave it what I had.

A few more songs played and I strategically picked the ones that wouldn't take all my breath.  Then I heard the beat.  The other tough cookies' song was Survivor by Destiny's Child.  I thought to myself I'm going to let this song have it.  As the first verse played I was giving it my all then as the chorus started with each line we punched the air, up up, side side, down down.  The second verse played and then the chorus.  This time something was different.  As I began to through the punches, the action of punching and the lyrics settled in my spirit.

I'm a survivor
I'm not gon' give up
I'm not gon' stop
I'm gon' work harder
I'm a survivor
I'm gonna make it
I will survive
Keep on survivin'

I was overcome by emotion.  I ran to the bathroom which was on the other side of the studio.  The song was coming through walls.  The song reminded me that I'm fighting for my life.  This was real.  I realized that after each treatment I choose to survive!  When you don't feel well, your spirit gets low, and your mind can send you on a mental roller coaster ride.  Life can have you feeling some kind of way about things.  I'm just keeping it real!

I managed to get myself together and head back into the studio. I enjoyed watching the class and grooved a little because my body physically wasn't able to do what I wanted.  I truly enjoyed the Pink Party. I had a blast.

Later that evening my little god-sister, Danielle sent me a devotion that confirmed today's survivor experience was a set up.  The devotion scripture was 2 Corinthians 12:8-9.

8 I asked the Lord three times to take it away from me. 9 He answered me, “I am all you need. I give you My loving-favor. My power works best in weak people.” I am happy to be weak and have troubles so I can have Christ’s power in me. (NLV)

This scripture says that there is power in being weak.  When I feel tired, disappointed,  frustrated,  mad, and just plain sick of being sick God says, "I'm all you need."  When I don't have the fight in me God says, "I'm all you need."

What is God's purpose for this journey?  I don't truly know.  What I do know is that when He speaks it's best to listen.  Tonight He clearly stated that to me that during this journey, He's ALL I need and that I'm a Survivor!

If you need someone to talk to, feel free to shoot me an email at atoughcookiechronicles@gmail.com.

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